I am feeling very raw in my human experience today.
No particular reason,
More like a million particle reasons
Floating around in matter of mind-heart space.
I’m just breathing, remembering I am love(d).
Waves of honest truth bubbling up
Like the sweetness of being a mom,
When it wasn’t always so sweet as a kid,
In those moments I am failing But not hopeless
Waiting for response from the other side
A dissolved marriage,
Arriving at the dissolution of family vs the solution
I am met a passing breeze,
No longer the woman I met at the altar
But like the altered seams of my dress
Willing to change
Ultimately, I am ok.
Deeply and fully ok.
I carry in the cavernous halls of my soul,
A sustaining recollection of fortitude. And the physical pain in my bones reminds me
It is a gift to be alive,
While still the pain is like a sneak peak
Into what it might feel like to die.
But it is not time
This is just a moment of the journey
I’ve made it this far.
Through broken impoverished childhood, I have survive.
Through violations of body, flesh and safety, I have survived.
Through oceans rising and evaporating, I have survived. Having turned from the goddess’ first tear to the last grain of sand, I survived.
For only in this moment and only in my mind, is my fear greater than my truth.
I was born to live. I was born to know. I was born to be.
In within that, I shall thrive,
While being blessed with incredible moments of grace